Sometimes when we have not been feeling well for long lengths of time, we can not help but to start feeling sorry for ourselves. We are human after all, and it is very hard to NOT miss the lives that we used to live before we got sick.
Many days I have pondered on what used to be, what I used to be able to do, the fun I used to have..back before I got sick. Boy, I sure can be a depressing soul when I want to be! I can be my own worst enemy.
Then one day, I realized that I needed to stop doing this to myself! Life can always become much worse than it is, so count my blessings for the things that I do have. The most fortunate of these blessings is that I am STILL HERE to tell the tale of my illnesses and how they have effected me.
I honestly believe that God sends people into our lives at the times when we need them the most, guardian angels here on earth..to help pull ourselves out of the darkness and into the light. My Grandmother used to tell me “Everything in life happens for a reason, even if we dont know the reason why..”
A few weeks ago, my good friend, Walter Fleury, celebrated the 27th Anniversary of a fatal car accident in which he was one of two survivors in an accident that killed several other people. Since that fateful day in 1984, Walter has had to live his life in a wheelchair, paralyzed from the waist down with a spinal cord injury. From that point forward, his life was permanently changed.
I graduated from high school with Walter and over time, we lost touch until about a year or so ago when we reconnected on facebook. I have learned many lessons from Walter on forgiveness and caring. I look at Walter, who has lost way more than I have..and he is always smiling, happy and ready to give of himself and to help in any way he can. An inspirational person to have in my life. It makes you stop and think- what do I really have to complain about in comparison.
Somewhere along the line, I learned to turn this huge negative in my life (Lupus and RA) into something positive, or at least I hope so anyhow. Hopefully, I am paying it forward with love, kindness and compassion as has been given to me. I learned that by helping others, it helps myself.
There is also the hope that somewhere, somehow.. someone will read my posts and inspire them to go into Medical Research and perhaps be the one to discover the cures for these diseases. You just never know how your life may touch anothers somewhere along the line …but there is always hope that somehow your life can and will make a difference. 😉
~Who knows what miracles you can achieve..when you believe…~
– Mariah Carey/Whitney Houston,
“When you Believe”, Prince of Egypt soundtrack